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Tuesday, August 04, 2009

i've been having strange dreams. WHOLE dreams, in which i can remember every detail and every person in it. and in the dream, i'm not actually conscious that i'm dreaming.
omg its actually very very freaky.
2 days i ago i dreamt that there's this big murder conspiracy going on and i was so freaked out cause i thought i was going to go to prison, and was thinking omg mama and daddy are gna kill me because they let me go to uni and blah only for it all to end like that. when i woke up i was SO relieved it wasn't real.
and then today i dreamt that i was going to aussie to study. i've applied, packed, done all the paper work, arranged for accomodation at melbourne, talked about money matters with my sister and was at the airport with all my winter clothes ready. and i woke up. thinking, WHAT why am i still on my bed, am i late for the plane?! then i realise im dreaming. when i fell back asleep i continued the dream ok... this time it was more disrupted, like im starting to find loopholes, like how my mum was commenting on how tiny my suitcase was. i opened it to realise i only brought clothes and nothing else. no shoes nothing. hahaha.. and i had to rush home to repack. omg. and i woke up damnnnnn confused, it took me awhile to remember how come im still on my bed.

and perhaps the most distinct feeling was... that lingering feeling of disappointment.
haha, maybe my dream was telling me something huh.

12:50 AM